An acute sense of weltschmerz

I've had it my whole life - an acute sense of weltschmertz. It's a german word which looosely translated means "to feel the worlds pain" - an accumalated sense of the pain the world faced every day.'world weariness', sadness about the evils of the world..

And evils are something we aren't short of - good people die, children are raped, poverty, illness, tragedy, crime, the elderly, abuse, unemployment. the mind boggles.

one of my girlfriends had a boyfriend who claimed to be what he called 'an empath'. despite his personal shortcomings - i liked the idea. Here was a man who claimed to be blown away when he walked into a room by the collective pain of everyone - which he claimed he could tune into and feel- acutely.

It's a fascinating idea.

I never really beleived him entirely because if anyone could feel everyone else's pain - that person would probably not live to see their fifth birthday.

I have always thought i was tuned into other people's pain. I would never go as far as to claim i can feel everyone's pain - but i always had a sense of a greater pool of the stuff.

I have always been plagued by a sense of overwhelming sadness, can't pinpoint where or when it started - but its gotten steadily worse. The older you get the more you understand how sad a place the world is.

Lord Byron was also stricken with this ailment...

Anyway. I'm sad. I'm so over freakin come by sadness to the point that everytime i think too long i get tired becuase my thoughts weigh as much as an elephant. at least.

at the risk of oversharing i stop here. for now.

i have this feeling like .... something's gotta give.

stay tuned

anyway on the lighter side of the subject - here's a very cool cartoon on the subject of weltschmertz . I love canadian things. well thats not entirely true - i used to love brian adams (that now=crinkly canadian rocker), my tv lecturer (the cool one) was from canada, - and one of the hottest men i ever met was from canada... so enjoy the canadian cartoon *