Whenever i am feeling blue i get an urge to blog. No wonder this blog is such a splotchy mess!
Actually maybe i can identify with its inherently tragic nature.
Wow life is pretty hectic in my world at the moment. My mom is so sick now it's really hard to watch. I'm starting to feel really, freakishly alone. I'm sure its normal considering my situations at the moment but that is of little comfort as i choke back tears and maintain a brave exterior.
I have so much to do and i can suddenly hear a very loud clock ticking away the moments until we lose our mother.
Maybe the worst part is my little brother and sister. I feel so bad for them that i am constantly overcompensating for mothers slowly decreasing presence. They are scared, I am scared, and my mom is scared. Scared that we don't have much time left.
I guess its all beyond words really, which is why i don't even try to articulate these thoughts to real people :P But damnit i am looking forward to the next time i can make it to my cosy little bar!
Anyway. 5 million things to do and of course nowhere near enough time to do them all***
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